infinitlovalie
2023
Multimedia Installation / Performance
Homesick
Hans Weiss Newspace Gallery, CT State Community College Manchester, 2025
Exhibited at
infinitlovalie
The Arts Industry Loading Dock Gallery, 2023
infinitlovalie is a multimedia installation that reorients memory through tenderness, care, and emotional inheritance.
Centered around an altered dollhouse and multi-channel video projection, the work reconstructs fragments of family history, reframing personal memory through gratitude and connection. It considers how identity is formed not only by pain, but by the presence of those who remain.
For the past eight years, my work has functioned as a process of release - an attempt to externalize trauma and relieve the burden of carrying it. Living with bipolar disorder and dealing with the lasting effects of sexual assault and childhood trauma, I turned to art as a way to make pain visible, to move it outside of my body.
Previous works, including Com•mit•tal and Through the Veil, confront these experiences directly, exposing generational illness and trauma within my family. They operate through rupture - bringing what was hidden into view in order to reclaim a sense of agency.
Rather than focusing on what needed to be released, infinitlovalie turns toward what has remained - love, support, and the relationships that endured alongside and through that pain.
At the center of the installation is an altered dollhouse, its rooms reimagining spaces from my childhood. Each room functions as a site of memory, honoring specific family members and paying tribute to objects and moments from the past.
Video projections originate from within the structure, supported by stacks of books that have influenced my life or carry messages I wish to pass on. The dollhouse becomes both a container and a conduit, holding fragments of personal history while projecting them outward.
A diptych projection extends the work into the surrounding space, drawing from two distinct periods of my family’s history.
On one side, footage captured by my grandfather between the 1940s and 1970s documents the early formation of our family. On the other, recordings made by my grandfather and mother trace my childhood in the 1990s and early 2000s.
My grandfather was an archivist of his life, meticulously preserving these moments across formats. I later digitized this material, compressing over sixteen hours of footage into a continuous loop.
These projections are partially obscured by the dollhouse's architecture. Window frames fragment the image, allowing only portions to be seen at once. The rest spills into the interior spaces, illuminating the rooms with gestures of love: smiling faces, family rituals, and quiet, tender moments.
A mirrored reflection introduces yet another layer, giving a distorted, secondary view. The work resists a single, stable perspective, instead presenting memory as partial, shifting, and reframed.
Infinity Poem Video Art (24:58)
Video and sound from the main projection featured in infinitlovalie.
A larger projection on the gallery wall presents a flowing sequence of text - ten lines that expand, contract, and loop continuously.
These are drawn from a series of poems written in a meditative state, each dedicated to a member of my family. The language resists traditional structure: sentences dissolve, words merge, and meaning unfolds through repetition and rhythm.
I refer to them as “infinity poems.” Each line leads into the next without closure, allowing the text to repeat indefinitely. The poems function as both offering and invocation - gestures of care that go beyond linear time.
Live Performance Documentation (23:53)
Spoken word performance activating the installation space.
This video was filmed and edited by Bizzie Ruth at The Arts Industry in West Hartford, CT.
The piece conveys a shift of perspective - from viewing the past through the lens of trauma to recognizing the presence of love within it. It does not erase pain, but situates it within a larger field of connection and resilience.
I felt guided in the making of this work - by my ancestors, by something beyond myself. Where previous works required excavation, this one arrived with ease. Materials, ideas, and solutions unfolded without resistance.
Rather than asking the work to hold my pain, I allowed it to hold something else: gratitude.
infinitlovalie exists in the space that opens after release - the moment when grief gives way to something expansive, continuous, and sustaining.
Materials / Specs
Video projection (24:58)
Archival footage (8mm → VHS → digital transfer)
Spoken word performance
Mixed media sculptural elements
Variable dimensions
This project was funded by the Connecticut Office of the Arts.